April 2013
2 posts
Dear Baby: The kids and I were on a playground on... →
dearbaby:
The kids and I were on a playground on Saturday when I heard another couple discussing Arlo’s sunglasses. I couldn’t find his regular ones and so I had put him in a pair of too-big green ones that we keep in the car as back-ups.
We do not go outside without a hat and sunglasses for our…
I think saying something with patience would have been okay to. I don’t know why...
February 2013
10 posts
rough night
it was a rough rough night. i went to my mom’s store yesterday. ellie did great. i left her for a couple of hours to meet a tax client friend and when i came back, my mom said she didn’t even miss me. elated at this news, i decided that i wanted to leave for another half an hour or so and go get a mani/pedi.
it was wonderful. i keep looking down at my nails/feet and am so happy....
Ecclesiastes 5
Fulfill Your Vow to God
5 [a]Guard your steps when you go to the house of God. Go near to listen rather than to offer the sacrifice of fools, who do not know that they do wrong.
2 Do not be quick with your mouth, do not be hasty in your heart to utter anything before God. God is in heaven and you are on earth, so let your words be few. 3 A dream comes when there are many cares,...
Ecclesiastes 4
Ecclesiastes 4
New International Version (NIV)
Oppression, Toil, Friendlessness
4 Again I looked and saw all the oppression that was taking place under the sun:
I saw the tears of the oppressed— and they have no comforter; power was on the side of their oppressors— and they have no comforter. 2 And I declared that the dead, who had already died, are happier than the living, who...
Ecclesiastes 3
New International Version (NIV)
A Time for Everything
3 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, 3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and...
where you are is where i'm free, holiness is...
i don’t know why i’m feeling a little bit down.
ellie woke up up around 4 something and i couldn’t fall back asleep…my mind kept racing with different thoughts, so i just gave up.
i’m exhausted. but sleeping 6 or 7 hours is better than sleeping 1, so i’ll take it.
thanks God for letting me sleep.
i guess one thing i want to try to focus on today is my...
control
i’ve been realizing more and more how much of a control freak i am. when things don’t go the way i think they should, i freak out. i get angry. i blame God. it’s scary. coming to grips with the fact that i cannot control things. that i do not have control of my life—i think that’s why i struggled with predestination and election. but i am not in control. God is...
Ecclesiastes 2
Ecclesiastes 2
New International Version (NIV)
Pleasures Are Meaningless
2 I said to myself, “Come now, I will test you with pleasure to find out what is good.” But that also proved to be meaningless. 2 “Laughter,” I said, “is madness. And what does pleasure accomplish?” 3 I tried cheering myself with wine, and embracing folly—my mind still guiding me with wisdom. I wanted to see what was good...
Ecclesiastes 1
Everything Is Meaningless
1 The words of the Teacher,[a] son of David, king in Jerusalem:
2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher. “Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless.”
3 What do people gain from all their labors at which they toil under the sun? 4 Generations come and generations go, but the earth remains forever. 5 The sun rises and the sun sets, and...
Sunshiny day
wow. life feels so much different with good sleep. i think it’s been about a month since i’ve slept 6 hours straight.
ellie’s been sleeping like a champ this week. last week was horrible. i swear she woke up every 2 hours, starting at 8:30. I sleep in ellie’s room with her, so every time she would wake up, she would roll over and try to climb on my chest. NOT COOL....
January 2013
12 posts
Proverbs 29
Proverbs 29
New International Version (NIV)
29 Whoever remains stiff-necked after many rebukes
will suddenly be destroyed—without remedy.
2 When the righteous thrive, the people rejoice;
when the wicked rule, the people groan.
3 A man who loves wisdom brings joy to his father,
but a companion of prostitutes squanders his wealth.
4 By justice a king gives a country...
proverbs 28
Proverbs 28
New International Version (NIV)
28 The wicked flee though no one pursues, but the righteous are as bold as a lion.
2 When a country is rebellious, it has many rulers, but a ruler with discernment and knowledge maintains order.
3 A ruler[a] who oppresses the poor is like a driving rain that leaves no crops.
4 Those who forsake instruction praise the wicked, but...
Proverbs 27
Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know what a day may bring.
Let someone else praise you, and not your own mouth;
an outsider, and not your own lips.
Stone is heavy and sand a burden,
but a fool’s provocation is heavier than both.
Anger is cruel and fury overwhelming,
but who can stand before jealousy?
Better is open rebuke
than hidden love.
Wounds from a friend can be...
Saturday
First weekend here. Jin’s work schedule changed so he leaves around 7:30 and is home around 5:30. I got a chance to get use to this while we were in SC, but it still is tough being with Ellie for so long— I guess more exhausting than anything.
But it is really nice having people I know in the area.
Thanks to Danc for coming over and bringing us food!!
So yup. Glad the weekend...
Proverbs 26
26 Like snow in summer or rain in harvest,
honor is not fitting for a fool.
2 Like a fluttering sparrow or a darting swallow,
an undeserved curse does not come to rest.
3 A whip for the horse, a bridle for the donkey,
and a rod for the backs of fools!
4 Do not answer a fool according to his folly,
or you yourself will be just like him.
5 Answer a fool according to his...
Philly
So we are here. Last night was our first trip out as a family. Our goal was to eat at a Chinese buffet and go to Walmart.
We couldn’t find the buffet so decided to have Churches chicken. Yummy
However, this place was take out only so ended eating some chicken in the car. Haha
Walmart trip was a bust due to Ellie being so cranky. I think she’s done really well so far adjusting,...
just wanted to say
thanks God. thanks. most of the time i’m an unappreciative brat who just looks at the bad things in life.
but today, i’m thankful. thankful for so many things…especially you. thanks for that.
proverbs 25
More Proverbs of Solomon
25 These are more proverbs of Solomon, compiled by the men of Hezekiah king of Judah:
2 It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; to search out a matter is the glory of kings. 3 As the heavens are high and the earth is deep, so the hearts of kings are unsearchable.
4 Remove the dross from the silver, and a silversmith can produce a vessel; 5 remove wicked...
moving in 2 days
it’s actually happening. we are moving in 2 days.
after my freak out yesterday, i feel a lot better about moving. convinced jin to come home early and did A LOT of packing. feel like we are in okay shape.
gosh. what happened. i can’t believe we’re really leaving this town!
the town of state college is nice. wish i could take the townhouse. but yeah, for different...
proverbs 24
Proverbs 24
New International Version (NIV)
Saying 20
24 Do not envy the wicked, do not desire their company; 2 for their hearts plot violence, and their lips talk about making trouble.
Saying 21
3 By wisdom a house is built, and through understanding it is established; 4 through knowledge its rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures.
Saying 22
5 The wise prevail...
happy 2013!!
crazy. can’t believe it’s already 2013! happy new year!
Proverbs 23
New International Version (NIV)
Saying 7
23 When you sit to dine with a ruler, note well what[a] is before you, 2 and put a knife to your throat if you are given to gluttony. 3 Do not crave his delicacies, for that food is deceptive.
Saying 8
4 Do not wear yourself out to get rich; do not trust...
December 2012
6 posts
Proverbs 20
Proverbs 20
New International Version (NIV)
20 Wine is a mocker and beer a brawler;
whoever is led astray by them is not wise.
2 A king’s wrath strikes terror like the roar of a lion;
those who anger him forfeit their lives.
3 It is to one’s honor to avoid strife,
but every fool is quick to quarrel.
4 Sluggards do not plow in season;
so at harvest time they look...
proverbs 19
Proverbs 19
New International Version (NIV)
19 Better the poor whose walk is blameless than a fool whose lips are perverse.
2 Desire without knowledge is not good— how much more will hasty feet miss the way!
3 A person’s own folly leads to their ruin, yet their heart rages against the Lord.
4 Wealth attracts many friends, but even the closest friend of the poor person...
proverbs 18
Proverbs 18
New International Version (NIV)
18 An unfriendly person pursues selfish ends and against all sound judgment starts quarrels.
2 Fools find no pleasure in understanding but delight in airing their own opinions.
3 When wickedness comes, so does contempt, and with shame comes reproach.
4 The words of the mouth are deep waters, but the fountain of wisdom is a...
proverbs 17
Proverbs 17
New International Version (NIV)
17 Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting, with strife.
2 A prudent servant will rule over a disgraceful son and will share the inheritance as one of the family.
3 The crucible for silver and the furnace for gold, but the Lord tests the heart.
4 A wicked person listens to deceitful lips; a liar...
i started yesterday...
i started a post yesterday, but then facebook and email derailed me, so i am starting again.
dec. 20th. what in the world?? it’s about 6:30 in the morning. i snuck out of the room a few minutes ago and i’m hoping that ellie keeps sleeping.
thanks God. i know must of the time i’m not thankful and super whiny, but thank u for everything. thanks that ellie has been sleeping...
moving
so it’s almost official. we will know by 12 pm today where we will be moving. most likely, well as jin says, 90% likely, we will be moving in 2 or so weeks (nuts right?) to somewhere in southeast delco.
i can’t believe it’s happened this fast. now to clean, pack, and get this place ready to go.
i will miss state college. though i’ve been itching to leave for...
October 2012
4 posts
we raise our white flag
this song really hit me today.
“we raise our white flag, we surrender all to you, my all for you…”
for a while, i always wondered what it meant to surrender to God. i always thought it was giving everything up…living like a robot.
but as i was singing along with this song, i couldn’t help but grab a white napkin that was next to me and lift it up as my...
a new day
i woke up today not wanting to do anything. ellie slept through the night again. instead of instantly being grateful to God, i caught myself trying to take the credit…oh yeah, it must be because she’s use to the blankey…the blankey I gave her…the heart is such a deceitful creature.
1 Thessalonians 5
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all...
distrust
yesterday’s service at assembly was really eye opening for me. from the beginning of the sermon, i felt like God was talking directly to me. the pastor spoke on ruth 1, specifically about naomi and her bitterness towards God.
i feel like naomi. i want to be called mara. my circumstances, specifically my sleep and anger issues, have clouded everything. i have not seen God directly help...
September 2012
3 posts
it's been one year??
craziness. so happy first birthday to my ellie jelly belly!! i can’t believe it’s already been a year.
i can’t honestly say that the time has flown by. there have def. been times when i wondered when you would be 2 (we arn’t there yet). it’s been a year of lots of happy times and sad times…but the happy times do outweigh the sad times.
so my love, happy...
Ellie slept through the night without us getting up to comfort her….. Praise God!
July 2012
3 posts
spent.
yup. that’s how i feel. spent. i am really really really tired.
after my suspicions that ellie was not getting enough to eat/drink were confirmed, i spiraled into this weird funk, angry, depression type of thing.
i can’t help but blame myself. everything i read tells me not to. that’s it’s not my fault. but as the one that feeds her directly from my body, how can i...
Today’s Reading: Acts 10:1-23
Cornelius Calls for Peter
1 At Caesarea there was a man named Cornelius, a centurion in what was known as the Italian Regiment. 2 He and all his family were devout and God-fearing; he gave generously to those in need and prayed to God regularly. 3 One day at about three in the afternoon he had a vision. He distinctly saw an angel of God, who came to him...
it's been a while
so it’s been pretty busy here at casa de an. last week, jin had a business trip to maryland, so ellie and i decided to tag along.
i wish i could have taken pictures of all the food we ate, because it was pretty ridiculous. but yup. i didn’t. i did get a menu from the dumpling place i ate that i thought was psychotic sick (that is a good thing. haha)
so it’s already july. ...
June 2012
6 posts
precious sleep
yeah. i think i’m on a posting spree.
so i was finally able to get some decent sleep. it’s been about a week, i think. it’s been extremely frustrating, waking up in the middle of the night and having lots of trouble falling back asleep.
now, the interesting thing is that i do manage to fall asleep, without realizing it. jin stayed up to pray for me 2 nights ago. all i...
father's day 2012
so this was ellie’s first father’s day out of the womb :)
so we were watching the today show on saturday. i made the comment that i did not understand why they were showing so much father’s day stuff when father’s day was next weekend (i thought father’s day was the 23rd). jin casually stated that father’s day was tomorrow. i ran to the chick fil a calendar....
sushi day
this day has finally arrived. in about 3.5 hours, we will embark on our annual day trip to pittsburgh…this time though we will be accompanied by an additional person…
ellie~ :)
the above picture was from last night. props to aaron choi and sally for arranging a nice cook out. the food was very good. the more time ellie spends with people, the more i realize she doesn’t...
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life was tough before i had the baby and life is still tough.
i think i get lost in things when i don’t turn to God. He needs to be my source of joy. my source of everything.
when i lose focus of the main thing, i lose everything. i keep wanting a life that isn’t mine. i keep fantasizing about what life would be like if i had more more more. more money, more resources, more...
May 2012
19 posts
ellie loves water
ellie LOVES water. doesn’t matter if it’s cold or warm…she loves splashing and playing in it.
yesterday was a very full day for ellie. went to black mohshannon state park (spent like an hour packing in the morning, 10 minutes looking for ellie’s sun screen i misplaced), lunch at damons, played in the kiddie pool, bath, and a walk after dinner. girl passed out at 8:15.
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my dream.
so i had a very memorable dream yesterday.
i dream all the time. since my sleep is pretty interrupted (not to blame on the baby, my body is just accustomed to waking up a lot), there are some nights that i can have 4-5 very distinct dreams.
but yeah, yesterday. i dreamt i was in an auditorium…sitting next to non christians. eventually this auditorium turned into a classroom...
